In my everyday life, I’m in pain by seeing the boy I’m in love with not notice me and how in love with him I really am. Sounds cheesy, but it’s true.
Makes my heart hurt a little.
Im sick of being the damn friend.
I wanna be the sexy bitch every boy wants!
And I will be. Already on my way there.
Boom
Haven’t tumbled in a while, an I need to vent..
MY FRIENDS PISS ME OFF.
Well glad that’s off my chest. Anyways, the reason why.. She’s stupid. She’s ruining my relationship with one of my good guy friends by acting like we’re I the 5th grade trying to figure out if we like eachother. She needs to stop trying to set up my relationships. I can do it on my own, I’m not a baby. And she’s not even that good with relationships. Sheesh.. By not good with them I mean she comes to me asking for advice and then try’s to give ME advice.
Bitch back the fuck up.
Anywho. Life’s grand aside from that. Except for the me being sick of being single. Blahhh. I’m lonely. Although I don’t want the drama of a relationship, I still want the relationship. And now she’s ⬆ fucked it all up. UGHH
I suck at school. I’m never going to graduate. I just wanna have fun. Party. Get drunk. Go cray cray
Done.
You know it’s funny how when someone you were bestfriends with gets in a relationship and then forgets all about you. Yeah, well you always preached to me to never let a boy come between us an look at you now, hypocrite.
i miss you so much lately, and i know this is going to sound supper cliche, but i miss you so much that it hurts. i think about you constantly, everything reminds me of you, i dream about you. and why? because its summer. your always here in the summer, your mine in the summer, and this summer your not here. your gone. like you are in the winter. And i want you back, just like i do every summer, i want you here so i can hold your hand and walk down the road, so i can sit by you and just talk to you and hear what you have to say. so i can here you laugh, see you smile, just watch you. i don’t ever feel this way. about anyone. except you. but you don’t know, and you probably wont, because you live 300 miles away. 300 miles that i cant travel to see you, and that you don’t understand. i don’t tell people how i feel, i don’t act the way i do around you when i with other people. and i don’t like it. i wanna have fun and feel happy, not lonely and upset when i’m at home and your at home.
i want you to know how much i love you, but i’m to afraid to tell you how i feel. i’m a coward, but its true.
im wayyyyy to in love with you, tucker.
Why cant I just live in the 70’s? Like my life would be so great of I could live in the 70’s! That’s what I wanna be, I love rock and roll, and if I could not be judged for being totally chill all the tome and doing what I want all the time. When I could drop out of highschool and still have a job that was good, and I wouldn’t be judged! God. Everything would be so much better. So much fucking better. Oh well I’ll still do whatever I want no matter what era I live in
i havent blogged in so long!!! ahhhh. anyways schools over for summer in 3 days. and i cant even contain my excitement. haha so ready for this summers, its gonna be so great. djfbbdfkgjndofgoubfn.
over and out.
but hold on, every single road i roll on. baby dont cry..
i feel like this is my vent session when i really need one.. and i do.
school is a professional homosexual.i hate it so much, so thank GOD it is almost over. only 17 more days, i think im gonna die before that though, especially with the people i have to be around every single day.
i want summer but its not gonna be the summer i really want. im not gonna be here, AT ALL, and that upsets me. i dont know why, buts its starting to bother me that im going to miss out on everything. and i dont like it
music has become my everything when theres nothing for my everything to do.
i like being noticed, hahaha. im not kidding though. i love it, it makes me feel good.
i miss tucker. i want him to live in bloomington, not florida. i feel like i can tell that kid everything like hes my brother and then kiss him like hes my lover. haha corny but its the truth. i wanna marry that kid
i cant wait for swimming and to be tan and skinny and so pretty in the summer. i cant wait to see my cousins and get away from the same people every single day. im sick of them. including the ones that are my “bestfriends”. i dont mean to be rude but its the truth. i cant do bloomington anymore.
i wish i was going to prom. i love getting dressed up like super alot. haha
alright im done
so last night it was confirmed that Osama bin Laden is dead, and he was killed by american forces, and i know this sounds corny but for some reason it made me feel free and happy. it was like i was given my freedom, or i wasn’t afraid anymore. and i know there is still a lot to be scared of because now that he is gone and Alquida knows that we are the ones that killed him, they are going to retaliate. but hey, rejoice in the present, were america. and we are free
People say I’ve changed. Is is because I don’t party on the weekends, don’t go out and act stupid, don’t smoke, don’t act like a slut, don’t drink, don’t turn my back on my friends? People say I don’t like anyone. I’m becoming a loner. I’m not the same. I don’t act social. I don’t want to act social. Numerous things, all I can say is, I have no desire to act reckless and have a reputation. I like being mellow, listening to music watching sports and playing guitar. Being like this now doesn’t mean I’ve changed, truth is I haven’t changed like everyone else. I haven’t had huge things happen in my life at age 16. I haven’t done anything illegal, I don’t really want to. I havent become a whore like the other 95% of my highschool class. And if that means I’VE changed then sorry. I’m not changing now, and that’s fursure.
